My Angel

I smiled…
Atouch
She frowns

“Angel, what?”
I touched her lips…gently
Oh! The feel

She showed none.

Hey,
I frowned then
She looked up
Blank

She stood,
Roaming

Disturbed,
I picked my jacket
I walked out.

On my way, I heard her...
She hissed

I shrugged.

Oh, I was a mess
And will be one again
Angel is pushing me into Viky's waiting arms
And she knows it

Angel is my girl
Viky is my friend.
Viky is the problem

Viky stays in the neighborhood
My legs were reroute to her place

She saw me from the window

Her hug was warm.
She looked me in the eye
And she understood
She said nothing
She hugged me.
Tighter.

We walked into her room
Hands held together
Bound like it should be

“Angel knows…” I said
Viky sighed…she sank to her bed
She said “...I'm sorry LJ”

I held her
She placed her head on my shoulder
I pinched her neck
Ran my fingers through her long hair
Silent bliss

Then she said
“Go back to her… Please”

Viky…a friend
But we are not what we want
She won’t let us

She likes Angel.

‘Go back’ rang bells in my ears.

On my way home, I reminisced
Memories…sweet
Viky!

Her kiss
Her long legs
Her pretty face
Her soft laughs
Her hands on my chest
Her bits of my nipple

Her fingers caressing those hairs

Oh, Viky!
Now everything gone.

Just let go, LJ!

I stood at the door to my room
I turned the lock

Angel stood where I left her
Now facing me...

I stared, endlessly

My angel...

I walked up to her
Placed my hands round her waist
Drew her close
Breasts to breasts

“I love you angel…” I said
She said…
“LJ, Viky is the problem”
“Was”, I whispered.

Slowly, she held me…

A deep kiss
Colliding our lives-breath

The world varnished.

The Skies Healed Me

Lost for words
Lost in thoughts
Lost beyond

Rapt
At sea
Missing

Lost in lines
Stretched out in pains


Lost in trouble
In fruitless effort

In the evening breeze
Alone


I go on
Still
Lost

I hunt healing

Eeveryone flee me
And, or, perhaps,
I flee everyone

But I couldn’t flee the skies
The skies didn’t flee

The skies found me
At sun down
Spreading its arms

I steady my gaze
And ran into it

Warm

It was beautiful

The skies healed me.

A new baby

I straigthened, mildly
Started down, slowly
Corkscrew movement
Steadily measured

Down

Down

Not in a rush

My fore head the lead

I kept the pace


Something was down

Wall like
Soft like
Like I was enclosed

It gave way

An opening

Not wide

Contractions
Slowly

Contractions

Faster

Wider

Wider

I felt the outside

Things were happening

My keeper was moved
Helped to move

I slowed
And she calmed

My keeper seems to be positioned

She eased and urged me

I regained my moves
A bit faster

And the force…

Then there was
A different air
A different feel
A different smell

And I screamed

And I was touched

And I came out

Whole

And I was carried
Tenderly

I jiggled
All I could do

I weighed 3.2kg

Handsome
Innocent
Spotless

On the 18th of October, 1986

I stepped into planet earth
A New Born Baby Boy.

All I Have

I picked my fountain pen…
I wrote…
I stood...
I walked…


Nothing

Perhaps lonliness

I played
Droned

Nothing

Maybe I needed to talk…
With him? NO!
Her?

I picked my phone…I dialed
Credit balance...

Nothing

My wallet...
Oh nothing.

I sighed…

From the window,
I imagined…
I heard
I smelt

Nothing

My eyes paid visits

There was nothing

I thought pretty nothing

Memories...nothing

I tapped the wall…
Hard
Some pains

It was nothing

I felt my limbs…
I went to the bed
Whispered to myself…

Again, nothing

Where is my pillow?
Sleep…
Nothing

I felt nothing

everything nothing!

Am I nothing?


Hush!!

I took a breathe

Deep
Again...
Deeper

MY breathe!

I felt the air
yea…

Something

I drew more air
Pushed some out

My breathe
Its all I’ve got

ALL I HAVE